Tuesday, November 13, 2012


So I got new tattoos and I love it. 
I now have 7 tattoos, most are in pairs. Yes, I'm planning to get more. Me and fiance would get matching ones when hes here. I'm excited! So let me share the photos..
The artist doing his magic.

I have found the one whom my soul loves. Yii.

Inside all of us is a wild thing

These are red bows, tattooed free. Haha

Here are my other tattoos..
My first tattoo, My kids names.

Thomas and Adam

That's Mother in Chinese.

That is all for now, I can't type well now cause its too dark. 
Hope you all like it.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Wedding Bells? I cringe.

Oh yes, I cringe. 
I am a single mother of two boys, I just recently got separated with my partner for 7 years. And yes, we did not get married. The reason we never got married? Its a long complicated story which basically boils down to, me, too damn scared to be committed to someone for the rest of my life. We don't have divorce in our country and annulment is expensive, I could never afford it. 
And before you guys, judge me, I'm sorry to tell you, its not my fault that our relationship did not work. I will tell you though, that we have tried very hard to save it. 
But really, that is history. 
I have fallen in love with weddings. 
You must be thinking that I'm a lunatic who found a computer and just typed away whatever I want but I'm serious. Weddings are just so pretty. 
Just to be clear though, I still don't see myself getting married.
I just love the dresses, the shoes, the flowers, the themes, the pictures and yes, I also love the fact that this couples are in love.
So let me share a picture I really find beautiful... I absolutely love everything about it.

I bet you fell in love with it too. 
I really just want to share this picture cause its been on my Documents folder for ages, I could never get to pin it.
I'll talk more about weddings and all that stuff on my future blogs, I just have so many things to do right now and well, my boys who are both toddlers, 3 years old and 2 years old are taking over the computer.

I'll see you around girls! Ciao!

Monday, July 30, 2012

Lost Love Letter

I am trying to write a novel about an army man and her lady. I want to start it off with a long lost love letter from the girl. A letter that was never received or maybe never meant to be sent.. So I'm not sure if ending would be a tragedy or a happy one. Here's a copy of the letter: 

My dearest Jeremy,
I'm head over heels in love with you and I hope you are too. It breaks my heart that your far and I can't talk to you much but I understand that this is what you do. I sometimes doubt your love baby, I guess I would never be sure that you feel the same way about me. 
What we have is special, don't you think? If your reading this letter then it means that were together, happily married I hope. 
I can see myself with you, loving you forever maybe with a kid of our own.
What made me stay, you might be wondering. Its your smile. My favorite picture of you is the one where your smiling back at the camera. Its the kindest, most genuine smile I've ever seen on a man. It makes me want to wake up beside you every single morning for the rest of my life. 
Please don't stop me from loving you. Please don't run away because it might not work out. I don't want to love you with limitations. My love is not just a gift to you, its also the reason why I'm contented with my life right now. Just thinking that your there and that somehow you are in love with me too is enough for me to go on with my everyday routine with joy in my heart. 
You don't know how much I appreciate that you are there for me to love babe. I have so much love to give and I'm glad that you are willing to be on the receiving end of it. 
I'm holding on to your promise that we will meet again. Its going to be harder to see you leave. A glance of you is worth all the pain of saying goodbye again.
I will always wait for you babe, I know you'd come back to me every time. 
I will keep this letter as long as I could. This would remind me that I've loved you with all my heart, no conditions, no limitations, endless and passionate. I will keep this to remind me that I can love someone so selflessly. 
Take care baby, I love you.


So let me know what you think. Ciao.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind(Movie)

I can't really describe what I felt while watching the movie. It hooked me though. Since I'm a single mother, I had a lot of things to do while watching the movie but I had to pause what I'm doing to be able to watch the movie without delay.
I didn't find it romantic, which I think is what the director wants. Nothing too close to what I'm going through and since the story is technically not possible, its hard to relate to it. It made me think though that erasing bad memories would be great for a lot of people. But In Joel and Clementine's case, its not really advisable. If this would ever be possible in real life, I think there should be a lot of precautionary measures before this procedure could be done. This procedure shouldn't be too easy to do.

And it made me realize that when your trying to forget someone, bad and good memories come together.You can't erase bad memories without erasing the good memories as well. We should just live life without regrets. Easier said than done, I know.

At the end of the movie, I'm glad they still end up together. Because they're two very different people, I didn't even see a single thing that they have in common yet they fell in love with each other. And its sweet to think that they love each other so much, they're willing to work hard for their relationship to work. Cause when two people have the common likes, same hates and just don't fight, the relationship gets boring. Its a simple reminder that in love, everything is possible.

Jim Carrey is a very good actor by the way. And Kate Winslet, I find her beautiful in this movie, amidst the changing color of her hair.

So here is to end the blog. A quote from the movie that I can very well relate to: " Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."


P.S. I Love You

I had to write about this movie before I watch another one. 
It made me cry that's for sure. And if you won't even get teary eyed watching this, you have serious issues.

I think Daniel and Holly should have ended up together instead of making it look like Holly will end up with William, the other Irish guy. Is this movie written by an Irish lad? Daniel and Holly had chemistry while William had a nice ass and the movie really wanted us to like him. He's hot but he just doesn't look like hes in love with Holly as much as Daniel is. So I really got disappointed that after Holly and Daniel kissed, they figured that they're better off friends. I'm like shocked. WTF? But I'll give William a chance, they have not spent a lot of time together as much as Daniel and Holly did. But they had sex though so I think that makes up for it.

You know who I really appreciate in this movie? Its Patricia, Holly's mother. I can feel her pain. Every eye movement shows emotion that can't be expressed by words. 

Based from comments on its other reviews, the book is better than the movie. Well, what's new? I'm glad that I was able to watch the movie first before I read the novel cause I don't want to watch a movie with expectations. I'll end up not enjoying the movie and just get disappointed and it happens every time anyway. And so I have to download the book from the internet so I can read it. Yes, as much as I love the smell of a new book, I just can't afford to buy a new one right now. 

I decided that I'm gonna blog about movies I've watched and maybe books I read. I should have done this ages ago, cause now I have to watch movies I've watched before and read books I've read before cause I can only write about it right after I read or watched it, when the emotions are still fresh. 

Now my blogs are not summaries of the movies or books so please don't expect that I'd tell you all about it. My blogs are more on what I think was great or wrong in it. Feel free to comment what you think about the article and share your views as well, I'd appreciate it. 

And of course I won't leave you without a quote from the movie. One of my favorites: "Holly Kennedy: That's a real honest to goodness couple right there. They've probably been together since the flood. 
Daniel Connelly: We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair."

Till next time, See yah!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Oooo "Magic Mike"

Alex Pettyfer. You'd totally google him after watching Magic Mike. Well at least that's what I did right after. 

If you are just like me, I'd give the movie double thumbs up. Because I got just what I wanted. The storyline is not complicated. Full on body baring. Yehey! And Alex, my dearest Alex Pettyfer makes me want the movie in 3D. 
I'll buy their DVD. 
Oh just make sure you don't watch it with your boyfriend or husband. Spare them the pain if you really love them. And they'd probably walk out anyway. And you won't care. Haha

Channing Tatum did all his sick dancing moves and Mr. McConaughey did what he knew best, showed off his abs. Even without knowing about Tatum's stripper history, you'd notice that he did this before.
Joe Manganiello is worth mentioning too. My friend like him cause he is RIPPED. He got that perfect bod out of the 5 stripper characters. Matt Bomer was okay. I must admit, him being gay really killed the excitement for me. Felt like He's a sister, very awkward to watch. Alex Rodriguez deserved a better role than this! This is what happens when you cut shows like CSI Miami! Dammit. And of course the wrestler, Kevin Nash. Well if you like wrestler type of guys, then maybe he's the man.
Now, the ladies of the movie. Why the hell is Cody Horn pretty on the premier but not on the movie? I'm sorry, but she and Channing does not have chemistry. Maybe they did that on purpose so ladies watching won't get jealous. Haha. Olivia Munn though is super hot.

The story by the way revolves around Magic Mike(Tatum) as he teaches The Kid(Pettyfer) on how to be a stripper. Simply awesome.

And I just read somewhere that they're planning to make Magic Mike 2! Oh my goodness!!!! I'm going to have a heart attack. 

The trailer link down below:

Thursday, July 12, 2012

I need a Loooove Doctor

This crazy little thing called Love.
I got the love bug baby. Got me so sick I'm going to try puke it out of my system.
Don't you hate it when that person you thought cared about you a lot makes you wait? Then act like nothing happened when he finally shows up. 
Then he whispers I love you and you still say I love you back. And yet you don't know if he means it. And your really tired of the same shit.
Sometimes you just want to leave him but you can't move your fucking feet. 
You held on to a past so hard, you forget about the present.
Then you remembered there's someone waiting for you, who will love you unconditionally. 
And so you have to choose between your yesterday and tomorrow. 
Sometimes I wish I end up alone, with my two kids.
I'd give up love cause love didn't really help me.

But before I choked all of you with my love problems, this is not really my diary.

As much as people say that you should love with all your heart, blah blah blah. You still need to use your brain. 
In my case, my heart is tired but stubborn. It still takes over my brain sometimes. And its been doing that a lot lately. What I do to to snap out of the dreamy love thing, I slap my face hard. If I could punch myself without the pain, I probably would. 

So this blog goes out to girls and gays who loves love and all its crap. Who cries their heart out and does some emo shit when they get hurt but stands up after, brush their hair, puts lipstick on and whispers "Your lost, motherfucker". Don't you feel a little better now?

But I guess Life would never be complete without love, hate and something else. My favorite love quotation would sum up what I really want to say:"At some point, you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart, but not in your life."

Here are some of Love Quotes in Movies that I really find romantic:
"The truth is... I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart... and I never really got it back."- Reese Witherspoon, Sweet Home Alabama
- my favorite movie
 "Love cannot be found where it doesn't exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does."- David Schwimmer, in the movie "Kissing a Fool"
- i have to watch this 
"Sometimes I wish I had never met you. Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."- Good Will Hunting
- just because I can relate to it 
"If you're not willing to risk it all, then you don't want it bad enough." - Unknown
- so effing true
 “Don’t say we aren't right for each other, the way I see it is… We aren't right for anyone else.”- from the movie, The Cutting Edge
- awww.. id stay single then. lmao. 
"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love. But that doesn't mean you love them any less. Sometimes, it even makes you love them more."- The last song 
- Yes. I agree.
"Spongebob: "What do you usually do when i'm gone?" Patrick: "Wait for you to come back."- Unknown
- That's why I love Patrick.
"Why u wanna be married to me for anyhow? So i can kiss you anytime i want."- Sweet Home Alabama